Well, okay, I'll admit right off the bat that I have no clue what makes you awesome. Well, maybe. Some of you, who I know personally, I could come up with a list. But the rest of you... I'm just going to assume. Because the fact is, we all have things that make us awesome, but we don't always claim it.
Why don't we claim it? Well, there are a lot of reasons, and I know for me, a lot of it goes back to childhood wounds where people mocked me for claiming my awesomeness. I was bullied and treated really badly by a lot of people, so it was easier to shrink and hide from the meanness that seemed to inevitably follow. But you know, the more we keep hiding our awesomeness, the more we let the bullies win. They drag us down, and keep us down, and if you think about it, they don't do it because we're not worthy of our awesomeness, but because they aren't. Our awesomeness threatens them, because they bought into the belief that if someone else is awesome, they can't be awesome too.
Which is a big, fat lie.
Here is the truth about being awesome. I am awesome. You are awesome. And your awesomeness in no way diminishes mine. My awesomeness does not diminish yours. In fact, if we both allow ourselves to be awesome together, in recognition of our mutual awesomeness, we make the world a better, more awesome place. We give all the people out there, hiding their awesomeness, permission to shine.
I did a great video on Periscope today, about the fear of putting yourself out there. Friends, I wish I could tell you that I am not afraid. But the truth is, I'm a big old chicken. Maybe that's why I love my chickens so much. I can totally relate to them. If you're not on Periscope, you should follow me and watch my scopes. Why? Because they're awesome! Anyway, in that video, I gave people a challenge to come up with ten things that make them awesome. I promised that I'd do it, too. Now, I did say I'd do it within the hour, but then I got inspired to do it as an art journal project with Princess, and I had to wait for the paint to dry, so it took a bit longer. But I am keeping my commitment to my viewers, to my friends, and to myself... the picture you see is the picture I made proclaiming my awesomeness to the world!
And, in case you can't read it, here is my list: Ten things that make me awesome!
1. I make mistakes, and that's okay! (I messed up the lettering in my art, and it's okay!)
2. I am a good mom.
3. I love chickens.
4. I like to help people.
5. I am a good writer.
6. I am creative.
7. I am a nature lover (as long as it's not in my house!).
8. I love to travel.
9. I like to learn new things.
10. I am resilient!
So here's my challenge for you. What makes you awesome? Make a list of your ten things. If you're not brave enough to share them all on my blog, share your favorite. Whether you admit it here or not, you are awesome. I don't know all the things that make you awesome, but I know they're there. So share! Let's be awesome together, and make the world a more awesome place!
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Sunday, December 21, 2014
December Thanksgiving Art Journal Challenge Day 20
Today's art journal challenge is something you've never taken the time to be thankful for.
I struggled with this topic, because right now, I'm thankful for a lot of things, but they're things I've been thankful for before. Like my sweet daughter upstairs in her bed, fighting whatever ick is plaguing her. I'm thankful that even though it's miserable watching her suffer, I know she'll be okay. I'm thankful that the rest of my family is healthy. I'm thankful for my homemade chicken noodle soup. I'm thankful for tea.
I'm thankful for our warm, comfortable home. Believe it or not, that was a big one for me this afternoon as I left church and said hello to the homeless people already waiting outside for the meal we serve after our second service. I couldn't help but think how wonderfully lucky I am that I have a warm home to go to. I wondered what it was like for the homeless when they got sick. I imagined how hard it must be to have to worry about finding a warm, safe place to stay on top of fighting a bad cold. I am so thankful that my life is different.
And so here I am, struggling to figure out what to be thankful for that I haven't taken the time to be thankful for. Loads, I'm sure, and sometimes that's the challenge of these challenges. The things that come to mind aren't always what you're supposed to be thinking about. And that's okay.
I finally did come up with something in the spirit of the challenge, and yes, I know that I'm a day late. But hey, it's something. I think sometimes the most important lesson of these challenges is that you have to be willing to give yourself grace. It's also a fine example of a hurried drawing, and given my state of mind, I think that's okay too.
One of the greatest joys in giving myself permission to put up imperfect and rushed work is that it loosens the hold of the perfectionism that often grips me.
It's important to me to share my progress as I work through the temptation toward perfectionism. Sometimes I think these roadblocks and days like today are there to remind me just how human I am, and how lucky I am to be where I am. More importantly, it points to something my pastor said today (paraphrased by me) about us being completely unable to have a relationship with God without Christ. Sometimes I think my perfectionism is a mask to cover up my fear of not being enough. The truth is, I'm not enough. And I don't have to be.
So there it is. My inability to draw, and I'm sharing it with you because I want to encourage those of you who buy into the talk that you're not good enough. None of us are good enough, and that's okay. And even though today's art journal, in the sense of the challenge, might look like a failure, I'm thinking that it got me thinking about some pretty good stuff, and that's a win in my book.
Today's entry reads:
"I am so thankful for the little space heater in my office. I love how it makes me toasty warm which makes me super happy. I love to be warm and it makes my office so cozy. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!"
What can you be thankful for that you haven't been thankful for before?
I'd love for you to share your art journal masterpieces. You can either post them on Twitter, Facebook, or Instagram with the hashtag #DecemberThanksgiving, or feel free to email me if you want to keep it private.
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Thursday, December 18, 2014
December Thanksgiving Art Journal Challenge Day 18
How does that apply to today's art journal challenge?
Easy, since today's art journal challenge is about clothes, I was super happy to be wearing comfy pants. It's so much easier to move around and sit on the floor when you're wearing comfortable clothes.
But I also hope you take some time to look at my picture. It's pretty pathetic. Seriously, I wish you could see it up close and see how badly I messed up the arms. This isn't me trying to get people to say how terrible I am, but to point out that even though my drawing of myself has freakishly weird arms, it brought me joy to make it.
Bad art is still worthy of your art journal.
I think we spend so much time trying to get things perfect that we miss the joy of making art. I can't draw a person to save my life, and I don't care. Maybe some of you look at this and think, "wow, she's really bad, she needs to keep the day job." I'm good with that. I don't aspire to show my work in a gallery or make millions off of it. I like making pictures because the act of creation brings joy to my heart. Not being perfect reminds me that I don't have to be! God loves me and my art just as much as if my art were comparable to Michelangelo's. What He's looking at is my heart and my desire to open my heart to creativity.
So if you've been on the fence, wondering if you can do this art thing, go ahead and try it. Creating is fun, and it's even more fun when you aren't putting pressure on yourself to perform.
Today's challenge is the clothes you're wearing.
My entry reads:
"I am so thankful for my grey fuzzy pants. They are my favorite most comfortable pants. I love wearing them, and I'm glad to have something so warm and cozy. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!"
What are you thankful about in terms of the clothes you're wearing?
I'd love for you to share your art journal masterpieces. You can either post them on Twitter, Facebook, or Instagram with the hashtag #DecemberThanksgiving, or feel free to email me if you want to keep it private.
And, if you'd like to receive a PDF with all the challenges for this month, be sure to subscribe to my newsletter!
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Thursday, December 04, 2014
December Thanksgiving Art Journal Challenge Day Four
Today's art journal topic is SOMETHING YOU ARE NOT THANKFUL FOR. Oh yeah! I went there!
A while back, I did this art journal gratitude challenge I saw online, and the whole premise was to journal gratitude about a topic a day (kind of like what we're doing here) and it made me mad. Mostly because so many times, I'd look at the item on the list and think, "but I'm NOT grateful for that. Other people might have that in their lives and be grateful, but I don't. And being reminded that I don't have it just makes me mad." I know, sounds kind of like a tantrum right? But something really cool happened in my tantrum. By laying it out in my art journal and pouring out my heart, praying, and really wrestling with God over it, something changed in my heart. I look at some of the spiritual and emotional growth I experienced in my life, and I believe that it's due to me sitting down and wrestling with areas where I was not grateful.
So here we are. A gratitude challenge. An art journal. And I'm facing this question head on. It's the holiday season, and we're SUPPOSED to be grateful. But let's be honest with ourselves. Let's get those feelings out there. What aren't you thankful for?
Honesty is a great first step in the healing process.
To be able to say, "I don't want to deck the halls," when everyone else is making merry in your face. To say, "I hate the holidays because a loved one died during the holidays years ago." Or to admit that while your friends are posting Pinterest perfect photos of their holly jolly Christmas, yours is kind of a mess. Your art journal is a safe place to let it out.
I encourage you to go there. In my case, I found ways to turn it positive. But if you can't, that's okay. And if we hit another topic where you felt the way I did during another gratitude challenge, and think, "I can't be thankful for this," I'm all for saying that.
Here's my art journal for today:
"I am not thankful for winter. I really really really hate the cold. But in my making myself be thankful for winter, I am reminded that winter reminds me of how grateful I am for warm weather and without winter, there would be no changing seasons. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!"
What aren't you thankful for? Can you find a way to be thankful for it?
I'd love for you to share your art journal masterpieces. You can either post them on Twitter, Facebook, or Instagram with the hashtag #DecemberThanksgiving, or feel free to email me if you want to keep it private.
And, if you'd like to receive a PDF with all the challenges for this month, be sure to subscribe to my newsletter!
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Tuesday, December 02, 2014
December Thanksgiving Art Journal Challenge Day Two!
But I'm not an artist!!
I hear people say that all the time, and you know what? That's a lie! You ARE an artist! We create things all the time, but maybe we don't call it art. Do you decorate your house for Christmas? Do you adapt recipes for your family to eat? Those all require a certain level of artistic talent, so don't be so hard on yourself. It's all about creativity and being creative.
In case you need proof of the lack of necessity of having talent to have an art journal, all you have to do is look at my page for today. I'm pretty sure no one is going to hire me as a sketch artist anytime soon! And that's okay!
Now on to today's art journal challenge!
Day Two is something you use every day. In my case, it was a no brainer- my laptop. I am so grateful and so blessed to have this wonderful tool in my life. Here's what I wrote in my art journal:
"I am thankful for my laptop. It enables me to work every day, no matter my location. I am free to travel whenever, wherever, and it's such a blessing to have that freedom. Thank You! Thank You! Thank You!"
You'll notice that it's kind of hurried and I didn't use a lot of colors. Um, that's because I had a busy day. Like I said, this isn't supposed to take a lot of time. Some days my entries will be really pretty, and other days, not so much. And that's okay!
So what do you use every day that you're thankful for?
I'd love for you to share your art journal masterpieces. You can either post them on Twitter, Facebook, or Instagram with the hashtag #DecemberThanksgiving, or feel free to email me if you want to keep it private.
And, if you'd like to receive a PDF with all the challenges for this month, be sure to subscribe to my newsletter!
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Friday, August 29, 2014
Overcoming Art Journaling Fear
As I've shared my art journaling passion with others, I'm finding that a lot of folks are afraid to start art journaling because they don't think they're very good at art. Even though the idea intrigues them and they'd love to give it a try, they don't want to take that step toward trying art journaling because they're afraid they won't be very good.
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What I love most about art journaling is that anyone of any talent can do it! I can't draw a straight line or make a perfect anything, and I proudly admit that I can't draw people unless we're talking stick figures.
But here's the value in art journaling. The emphasis is on the process, not the product, and it doesn't have to be perfect.
It's true. Because I know I can't be perfect, and that the aim isn't perfection, I have a lot of freedom in letting the art be what it is. Good, bad, ugly, pretty, it doesn't matter. What matters is getting it on the page. What matters is that I'm willing to try.
I made a couple of videos today more specifically addressing this issue, and I hope you'll take the time to not only watch, but also to actually try art journaling! As an added incentive, I'm going to give away the original picture in this post- it's the exact picture I create in the video. I hope my little piece of art, imperfect as it is, encourages you all to not be afraid and just do it!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=35XDN6N3z2A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQs3MIqff1Q
Reply to this post letting me know you did the challenge, and you'll be entered to win. As a bonus, if you share your picture, you'll get an additional entry. I'll choose a random winner on Friday September 5th.
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It's not about being good!
What I love most about art journaling is that anyone of any talent can do it! I can't draw a straight line or make a perfect anything, and I proudly admit that I can't draw people unless we're talking stick figures.
But here's the value in art journaling. The emphasis is on the process, not the product, and it doesn't have to be perfect.
Art journaling is one of the best tools I've found in overcoming perfectionism.
It's true. Because I know I can't be perfect, and that the aim isn't perfection, I have a lot of freedom in letting the art be what it is. Good, bad, ugly, pretty, it doesn't matter. What matters is getting it on the page. What matters is that I'm willing to try.
The best way to overcome your fear is to just do it!
I made a couple of videos today more specifically addressing this issue, and I hope you'll take the time to not only watch, but also to actually try art journaling! As an added incentive, I'm going to give away the original picture in this post- it's the exact picture I create in the video. I hope my little piece of art, imperfect as it is, encourages you all to not be afraid and just do it!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=35XDN6N3z2A
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQs3MIqff1Q
Reply to this post letting me know you did the challenge, and you'll be entered to win. As a bonus, if you share your picture, you'll get an additional entry. I'll choose a random winner on Friday September 5th.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
You are an artist... even if you can't draw a straight line
I can't draw to save my life, and if you really want to know the truth about my art, I can't even draw a straight line. In fact, I can't even TRACE an object without really messing it up. My art is messy, imperfect, and will probably never hang in a gallery. But I don't care. It's my art, and it's expressing what I need to express. Sometimes not as fully as I'd like, but that's okay!
This week's art challenge was to use something we got in the mail to make art. I recently received a card from a friend, and I decided the envelope was pretty, and to use it. She and I are part of a group of long-distance friends who call ourselves the Bat Girls. As I thought about what I wanted to do with the envelope, I thought, what a great chance to pray for my friends. So I made art. I prayed for my friends. I thanked God for having them in my life. I prayed for their needs. I prayed we could see each other again soon.
Since we are the Bat Girls, I wanted the batman logo on it too. I downloaded the logo, cut it out, and traced it. Here's the part you need to notice as you carefully examine the picture. My lines are all messed up! I did a terrible job cutting it out, and an even more terrible job tracing it. BUT I DON'T CARE. Every artist has a signature something, so maybe mine is that it's never going to be perfectly traced or lined. There is so much I can't do well, but if I wait until I get it perfect, I'm not going to start. So I do what I can, and I love it, imperfections and all.
If you're curious about making art, or want to try, then I encourage you to JUST DO IT!! Don't worry about being perfect, getting it right, or even that your kids are a thousand times more talented than you. Even if it's just stick figures, your art is for you. Don't let someone else's standards of good art get in the way of expressing yourself.
Monday, January 13, 2014
The healing power of art, friendship, and Truth
One of the biggest blessings in my art journaling journey has been to see how many inner wounds it has healed. I'm doing a number of different art journal projects, and one of the most daunting things has been that a lot of the challenges ask you to do some kind of self-portrait.
I'm going to be honest here. I HATE pictures of myself. I'm not like some people, who completely shun the camera, because I have relatives who are like that, and it makes me sad that I have no pictures of them. But still, there's a tiny part of me that dies inside when I'm asked to be in a picture. When I see a picture of me, I see the awful labels that have followed me around for years- the ugly girl who was bullied and made fun of. I hear the voices that tell me I'm not good enough and point out all of my flaws. And I think, "I'm such a phoney for all the positive self talk I give myself about my appearance."
So when I'm asked to take a picture of myself and put it in a journal that's all about celebrating my creativity, I think, "why am I torturing myself?" Which means I put off the task as long as possible until I'm finally forced to do it because I can't allow myself to skip a journal exercise.
Today I had coffee with my friend Niki. She does not know I was struggling with this, and yet, she said something that rocked my world in terms of how I viewed my picture. She said something along the lines of, "living under Christ, we are already God's beloved. He doesn't look at us and see sinners, He sees people He dearly loves." I knew those words to be true. But as I tossed them about in my mind, I realized that as much as I say I believe that, I don't live that in my own life. If I really believed that God looked at me as His beloved, JUST AS I AM, then why do I look at myself with labels that are not true? I've worked so hard to get past the body image lies, but as much time as I spend telling myself what I think should be the truth, the old lies creep in.
When I got home, I decided to do the selfie exercise. As soon as I printed the picture, I immediately started picking out the flaws- my double chin because I don't know how to hold my head right, the hormonal acne, the gray hairs, the awkward smile. I glued my picture down, and I wanted to cry. But then I remembered Niki's words, and I thought, "all those things I hate, God loves." Before I could stop myself, I took a Sharpie, and wrote right across my forehead, "beloved." I decorated my picture by decoupaging tissue paper around it. I like that look, and I decided that it reminds me of stained glass, which is something you find in the most beautiful of cathedrals- God's holy places. I am a holy temple of God. But then I had to take it a step further. I wrote down all the labels GOD has given me. All the beautiful, wonderful things that HE has called me. I surrounded myself with truth.
I look at that picture now, and I think, "wow, I'm really pretty." I don't feel the shame I typically feel when I see a picture of myself. I see me. I see the person that God made. And I think she's lovely. I am lovely.
I don't make art because I have aspirations of being a great artist. Most people are not going to look at the art I make and think I have amazing talent. But that's not the point. In my art, I've found a way to take the wounds of the past, combine them with the beautiful words of truth from my friends, and find healing. I look through some of my other selfie projects, and I like the girl I see. She may not be perfect, but that's okay. God looks down on her - on me- and sees someone He adores.
What do you see when you see pictures of yourself? Do you see someone who is beautiful and beloved? If not, I encourage you to let God into that place. Take your picture. Print it out. Claim God's truth over your image. You are so valuable to God.
Monday, January 28, 2013
Making your office space work for you
I spent a good portion of the weekend cleaning my office. I didn't plan on cleaning my office, but as you may remember from my earlier post about how one project leads to another, you can understand how it might happen. It started last week, when I had a really great writing breakthrough. I decided I needed my desk to have some clear space to work. The only problem was, I had tax stuff all stacked up ready to do my taxes. So I started by clearing my desk.
Then, Saturday, I wanted a specific writing book that I know I have. But I couldn't find it right away on my writing bookshelf. I eventually found it, and it was exactly where it was supposed to be, but for some reason, that meant I had to clean my office. So now, I am in absolute bliss because not only is my office clean, but I got to do a few decorating/decluttering things I'd been wanting to do for a while now. I have a really small office space, and a lot of stuff, so this was a great exercise in making what I have work.
Presenting...
My office!
This is the view looking in through the door.
My office is in the basement. I hate being in the basement, but hey, you appreciate having an office to begin with, right? On the green wall, you see a white thing. That is actually the window, except that it's really old and it leaks freezing cold air, so I had hubby close it up with Styrofoam he had from another project. When we can afford new windows, it'll be a real window! The lamp thing you see, that is a special bulb that gives me the effect of being in the sun. So I don't have a beautiful well-lit office. But we made it work as best as we could with we already had.
Yes, those are my bookshelves. Some of them, anyway. The sticky notes on them are to let me know which is which for my catalog project. Someday I'll have them all in the catalog. My bookcases are pieced together from things we found on sale, at garage sales, and were handed down from others.
On the floor are three file boxes- two are stacked on top of each other. My laptop sits on that stack and I use the other one as a footrest. The fileboxes are all the mementos I'm saving from the kiddos, but I needed a table and footrest, and these are the perfect height. So why not let them do double duty? My couch is covered with a sheet- that's because my dog sits with me and he's gross. I wanted this couch to stay nice.
Here's the view from my closet. I have a tiny table squeezed between the couch and bookcase. I needed something to hold my tissues, tea, etc, and this small table works perfect. It's really ugly, but it was hubby's grandma's so I love it. The table has a drawer where I can keep junk like pencils, and then the shelf underneath is all of my current study materials. The dog is sniffing by my tiny trash can, and I have a bin next to it that has my book cataloging materials.
I have a fun quote I'm thinking of hanging above the couch- or above my desk. I can't decide, so it's not up.
The reason you see my ugly stepstool is because that's where it goes. When my door is opened, the stepstool is behind the door. It's a pretty small space, so I maximize my storage.
The big brown blob on the right is a shawl I knitted. I like to call it "The Behemoth." It's blanket sized, and it was a really good lesson in why you should check gauge before knitting. I usually have it wrapped around me as I work. But, as you can see from the other blankets in the picture, I also use those sometimes. I get cold easily, so I am generally wrapped in a blanket or two or more.

My closet is under the stairs, so there's not a lot of room, but I did manage to cram in 3 bookcases, and a couple of stackable storage drawers. Most of my shelves (including the ones in the other picture) are stacked with books two or three deep. Yes, I love my books. No, I am not getting rid of them. Being surrounded by books makes me happy.
I should admit that I have not read all of them. However, I intend to. I figure, once my kids are grown, hubby is retired, I'll have nothing to do but read. And that suits me just fine.
We will also not discuss my plans for when we run out of room. Personally, I don't think my kids need their own rooms when my books need space, but that's just my opinion.
This is the spot that started it all- my writing bookshelf. One of my goals this year is to make better use of what I have, and I'm hoping to really get some good use out of these books!
On the other side of my writing bookshelf is my desk. There's just enough room on that wall for the desk and bookshelf. I have a desktop, but I'll be really honest, I hardly ever use it. My office chair is a really fancy, really expensive chair, and, I hate it. It's not the chair's fault. I'm short so it's too big, and I haven't found one that works any better. If I sit at my desk for too long, my arm goes numb. So I don't spend much time there and prefer working on my couch. I do have a ball I sit on sometimes, but my chiropractor says I should only do it for short periods at a time.
My desk is a v-shape, and the other end comes just to my door. Like I said, small space. But it works. The far top of my desk (cut off in the picture) has a bunch of nice mementos and gifts from my writing friends around the world.
I'm not sure if you can tell from the picture, but I have a set of file folders in a holder on my desk- THAT's all my tax stuff. I still have to work on those, and match them to my spreadsheet, but I'm hoping to do that soon, so I can get my taxes out of the way this year. I need to be a good example if I'm going to talk to others about taxes, right?
Ugh, I just realized that my lighter thing is right there with my pretty candles, looking not so pretty. Oh well. Even when I clean things up and make them nice, it's never going to be perfect. Martha Stewart, I am not, and that's okay. My bookshelves don't match, well, actually, none of my furniture matches, and as you can see, The Dog likes to sneak in a lot of my pictures. But that's okay. You don't have to make anything perfect to make a difference.
Do you have things in your house that you can re-purpose to help you work better?
Then, Saturday, I wanted a specific writing book that I know I have. But I couldn't find it right away on my writing bookshelf. I eventually found it, and it was exactly where it was supposed to be, but for some reason, that meant I had to clean my office. So now, I am in absolute bliss because not only is my office clean, but I got to do a few decorating/decluttering things I'd been wanting to do for a while now. I have a really small office space, and a lot of stuff, so this was a great exercise in making what I have work.
Presenting...
My office!
My office is in the basement. I hate being in the basement, but hey, you appreciate having an office to begin with, right? On the green wall, you see a white thing. That is actually the window, except that it's really old and it leaks freezing cold air, so I had hubby close it up with Styrofoam he had from another project. When we can afford new windows, it'll be a real window! The lamp thing you see, that is a special bulb that gives me the effect of being in the sun. So I don't have a beautiful well-lit office. But we made it work as best as we could with we already had.
Yes, those are my bookshelves. Some of them, anyway. The sticky notes on them are to let me know which is which for my catalog project. Someday I'll have them all in the catalog. My bookcases are pieced together from things we found on sale, at garage sales, and were handed down from others.
On the floor are three file boxes- two are stacked on top of each other. My laptop sits on that stack and I use the other one as a footrest. The fileboxes are all the mementos I'm saving from the kiddos, but I needed a table and footrest, and these are the perfect height. So why not let them do double duty? My couch is covered with a sheet- that's because my dog sits with me and he's gross. I wanted this couch to stay nice.
I have a fun quote I'm thinking of hanging above the couch- or above my desk. I can't decide, so it's not up.
The reason you see my ugly stepstool is because that's where it goes. When my door is opened, the stepstool is behind the door. It's a pretty small space, so I maximize my storage.
The big brown blob on the right is a shawl I knitted. I like to call it "The Behemoth." It's blanket sized, and it was a really good lesson in why you should check gauge before knitting. I usually have it wrapped around me as I work. But, as you can see from the other blankets in the picture, I also use those sometimes. I get cold easily, so I am generally wrapped in a blanket or two or more.
My closet is under the stairs, so there's not a lot of room, but I did manage to cram in 3 bookcases, and a couple of stackable storage drawers. Most of my shelves (including the ones in the other picture) are stacked with books two or three deep. Yes, I love my books. No, I am not getting rid of them. Being surrounded by books makes me happy.
I should admit that I have not read all of them. However, I intend to. I figure, once my kids are grown, hubby is retired, I'll have nothing to do but read. And that suits me just fine.
We will also not discuss my plans for when we run out of room. Personally, I don't think my kids need their own rooms when my books need space, but that's just my opinion.
On the other side of my writing bookshelf is my desk. There's just enough room on that wall for the desk and bookshelf. I have a desktop, but I'll be really honest, I hardly ever use it. My office chair is a really fancy, really expensive chair, and, I hate it. It's not the chair's fault. I'm short so it's too big, and I haven't found one that works any better. If I sit at my desk for too long, my arm goes numb. So I don't spend much time there and prefer working on my couch. I do have a ball I sit on sometimes, but my chiropractor says I should only do it for short periods at a time.
My desk is a v-shape, and the other end comes just to my door. Like I said, small space. But it works. The far top of my desk (cut off in the picture) has a bunch of nice mementos and gifts from my writing friends around the world.
I'm not sure if you can tell from the picture, but I have a set of file folders in a holder on my desk- THAT's all my tax stuff. I still have to work on those, and match them to my spreadsheet, but I'm hoping to do that soon, so I can get my taxes out of the way this year. I need to be a good example if I'm going to talk to others about taxes, right?
Ugh, I just realized that my lighter thing is right there with my pretty candles, looking not so pretty. Oh well. Even when I clean things up and make them nice, it's never going to be perfect. Martha Stewart, I am not, and that's okay. My bookshelves don't match, well, actually, none of my furniture matches, and as you can see, The Dog likes to sneak in a lot of my pictures. But that's okay. You don't have to make anything perfect to make a difference.
Do you have things in your house that you can re-purpose to help you work better?
Thursday, January 17, 2013
My beautifully imperfect house
I admit to being one of those women who look at decorating magazines, model homes, and YES! I am addicted to Pinterest because I secretly dream of having a beautiful perfectly put together house. Nowhere in my Dream Home board will you find that stray dirty sock my Princess can't seem to pick up (and I refuse to do it for her). On a good day, my house won't be raided by the health department, but some days, you'd need hazmat team to get through it. Even when we have company, my house is always imperfect. I know women whose houses are always perfect, even with kids. But to be honest, I never quite feel comfortable in their homes. I mean, yes, I love looking at how beautiful everything is, and sure, I'd like that for myself.
Except...
Here is what I'd be missing out on:
Back when the Princess was back in preschool, she made one of those ghastly macaroni pictures that seems to be standard preschool curriculum. She brought it home and insisted on displaying it. On my sliding glass door. But how does a mom say no to that? I said yes. One time, I tried taking it down to wash the sliding glass door (ours is always gross- dogs, kids, and I don't have to clean it daily), and she was really hurt that I took down her picture. I promised to put it back on, and so I did.
A couple years later, in Kindergarten, the butterfly in the picture appeared. It is faux stained glass, aka tissue paper, and therefore, according to my sweet girl, must be on a window. Who can argue with that logic?
About a year ago, the macaroni project bit the dust. It kept falling off and getting damaged, so I convinced her to put it in her special picture file. Every time I tried to clean the door or thought about doing something with the butterfly, I just couldn't bear to part with it. The butterfly had become just as an important part of my decor as any fancy thing I could have found in a magazine.
Then yesterday after school, I saw her on the couch, clipboard on her lap, her hands busy with crayons. I asked what she was making, and she said it was a quilt. She worked for two hours, deep in an artistic trance. Later that evening, she called me to the sliding glass door, excited, but with trepidation in her eyes. "Look what I did." I could tell she was half afraid I wouldn't like it, worried that I might ask her to take it down, but I thought about her macaroni picture, and about the other pieces of art I'll occasionally find taped around my house.
My kids are artists. No, the art won't win any prizes or be featured in a gallery, but it's their art. And the grin she gave me when I said, "I love it," is priceless.
As long as I have kids (and hopefully someday, grandkids), I will never have a perfect house. I will do things to try to make it nicer, cleaner, and replicate some of the things I see in magazines and Pinterest. In the end, though, I accept the fact that my home has funny things like random pictures hung in places you don't usually think to hang pictures. But that's okay, because to me, it's beautiful
Except...
Here is what I'd be missing out on:
Back when the Princess was back in preschool, she made one of those ghastly macaroni pictures that seems to be standard preschool curriculum. She brought it home and insisted on displaying it. On my sliding glass door. But how does a mom say no to that? I said yes. One time, I tried taking it down to wash the sliding glass door (ours is always gross- dogs, kids, and I don't have to clean it daily), and she was really hurt that I took down her picture. I promised to put it back on, and so I did.
A couple years later, in Kindergarten, the butterfly in the picture appeared. It is faux stained glass, aka tissue paper, and therefore, according to my sweet girl, must be on a window. Who can argue with that logic?
About a year ago, the macaroni project bit the dust. It kept falling off and getting damaged, so I convinced her to put it in her special picture file. Every time I tried to clean the door or thought about doing something with the butterfly, I just couldn't bear to part with it. The butterfly had become just as an important part of my decor as any fancy thing I could have found in a magazine.
Then yesterday after school, I saw her on the couch, clipboard on her lap, her hands busy with crayons. I asked what she was making, and she said it was a quilt. She worked for two hours, deep in an artistic trance. Later that evening, she called me to the sliding glass door, excited, but with trepidation in her eyes. "Look what I did." I could tell she was half afraid I wouldn't like it, worried that I might ask her to take it down, but I thought about her macaroni picture, and about the other pieces of art I'll occasionally find taped around my house.
My kids are artists. No, the art won't win any prizes or be featured in a gallery, but it's their art. And the grin she gave me when I said, "I love it," is priceless.
As long as I have kids (and hopefully someday, grandkids), I will never have a perfect house. I will do things to try to make it nicer, cleaner, and replicate some of the things I see in magazines and Pinterest. In the end, though, I accept the fact that my home has funny things like random pictures hung in places you don't usually think to hang pictures. But that's okay, because to me, it's beautiful
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