Standing in front of Rotten Row, a place I've dreamed of seeing for years.[/caption]The funny thing about my lack of blogging of late is that it's not because I've lacked things to say or reasons to blog. The truth of the matter is that I keep thinking I'm going to re-do my website, and I don't want the hassle of having to move my whole blog or get new posts caught in transition. But I keep pushing back my website move. Partially due to the schedule of the person I'm having do it, partially due to my schedule. So, here it is, my site, and my blog, languishing.
Which is a perfect metaphor for most of my dreams and plans right now.
It should come as no big surprise that I have a lot of big dreams. Some I've had for years, but pushed aside due to time, money, doubt, and probably a few other reasons. But earlier this year, some of those dreams were re-awakened. And I came to this realization: The only thing standing in the way of what I want is me.
Sure, there are the practicalities of things like money, and time, but the truth is, even without enough time and enough money, I could be working toward my dreams. Okay, so there isn't enough money. So why aren't I working hard to set aside the money to pay for what I want? Logical, yes?
So the first half of this year, I've been thinking. Planning. Dreaming. And then my husband and I took what, for me, was a dream vacation I'd hoped to do for years. I realized that it wasn't enough. Yes, it was a wonderful trip. But why did I wait so long to find a way to come up with the money to go? Why didn't I recognize the importance of this dream, and do what it took to get there?
I realized that I was tired of waiting on the sidelines for everything in my life to perfectly come together to make my dreams come true.
Some of you may wonder about my writing. Isn't selling my first, then my second, book enough? In a word, no. I used to be ashamed of that answer, but the truth is, there is so much more I want out of life. I am grateful for my contracts, and I intend to keep writing. But I also intend to step out and keep pursuing the more.
Which leads me here, to this blog. I don't know when I'll get my site redone. It may be next week (not likely) or next year (more likely). But in the meantime, I'm going to keep sharing and moving forward. I'm going to keep doing the things I need to get what I need in place to accomplish my dreams.
What are your dreams? Are there steps you can be taking now to get you closer to them, even if the big pieces aren't yet in place?
