And what exactly do you mean by THIS?

So we know that God's been doing some heavy work in my heart lately.   And so today, we get hit with a mega whopper of a whammy (speaking of, why is tonight the ONLY night my compadres are not online?).

That Man got laid off. 

The sad thing is, the boss did him a favor by laying him off, because even if they found another place to put him, they're laying off 60 more people next week, and at least another 40 the following week.  They have no new jobs and no prospects of any in the near future.  How is this a favor?  Well, he's that far ahead of the others (including his boss) on the books.  Let's break out the champagne.

When I first heard the news, I just literally went, "WTF God?  Why are you doing this to us AGAIN?"  We're finally getting back on our feet after this happened the last time, which lasted TWO years.  And really, it wasn't a bad time... I mean, the blessing of that time is that God always provided for us.  We never went hungry, we always paid the mortgage, and we didn't lose out on a whole lot of quality of life.  I get the lesson of trusting God.  I do.  And it's not so much that I"m really worried about how we're going to make ends meet.  I'm not.  I'm a little pissed because it makes my new house goal a lot more difficult, but really, I'm not even worried about that.  I asked God for a miracle, and obviously this is His way of making sure it's such a big miracle that everyone knows it's Him.

So I was sitting here thinking about it, and one of the things God has had on my heart lately is the idea of seeing Him everywhere.  We tend to look at the negative and say, "well where's God in this situation?"  And we tend to go on and on about all of our problems and seek help while failing to recognize the good things in our lives. 

The good things in our lives... we have a lot, and yes, we are blessed.  I mean, I have a job for another two weeks, and I have been putting aside some money.  We do have a roof over our heads, and I think our mortgage payment is still do-able.  Thus far, we haven't done our taxes, and thus have not spent what I anticipate to be a refund.   We're all healthy.  We're happy.  We love each other, but more importantly, we love God, and He loves us.  DH won't be getting a paycheck, but he does have some people (that actually pay him, imagine that) wanting him to do some work for them.  And he knows of a few other job opportunities that he can take-even though it means possibly leaving the area.   And I see the potential for a couple of things I've been praying about to happen.  God, please work with me here will ya?

So, I'm okay... pissed off... but okay.  Mostly just confused, because I am such a control freak about things in my life that it's really hard for me to live not knowing when the next check is coming in or how much it will be.  But I do trust that God will provide.  I just get impatient in wanting to know the how and other details. 

Okay, off to bed.  I'm working the MOPS sale this weekend-I worked all day today, from 9-10:30 with about an hour break in the middle, and I'm on again tomorrow from 7:30 until about 2:30.  Fun, fun, fun.