And after the great malfunction...

Well, my laptop power source was acting up again, so I've only been online off and on to do work. I haven't been able to do much on the computer lately because of the silly power thing. But hubby fixed it for me, so now I'm tres happy.

Before the great computer malfunction, I'd intended to blog about B, and how lucky I am to have such an amazing daughter. Do you ever just watch your kids and think, "WOW! I can't believe that child came from me!" Well, okay, I do constantly, but it's usually when they're doing something disgusting like trying to drink from the toilet bowl because they're pretending to be dogs. Oh, I wish I were joking. Seriously, though. B just has this amazing loving heart, and I sometimes just watch her and marvel at how she came to be as she is. Yesterday, we walked to the grocery store, and she found a series of about 15 pennies on the ground. The first thing that came to her mind was, "Wow, look at how cool these are! I'm going to share them with my whole family!" She couldn't wait to get home to share these pennies she'd found.

K is the same way. Which is pretty funny, because she's a mean little bugger. She'll accidentally hurt you, and when you tell her it hurts, she'll laugh hysterically and do it again. And yet... there's this amazing kindness that I can't even describe. It's been two months since my surgery and every couple of days, she'll ask me how my boo-boos are. She makes me show them to her, then asks if they hurt, then kisses them, and then rubs them gently. I see her with her dolls, and she totally loves on them. She's the kind of mom to her babies that I wish I were with her. Sometimes I watch her take care of her babies and I am ashamed of the kind of mom I am- short-tempered, impatient, angry, and too tired to do much of anything. Peach, Sallick, and Toby (her babies) are lucky little girls.

Yesterday, because I couldn't use my computer except to do the must-get-done-today updates, I decided to take the kiddos on a nature walk. Part of it was for B's homework, and part of it was that I wanted to do something special with them. We had so much fun. We did all sorts of projects, and when we ran out of things on the homework list, the kiddos were begging to do more. They WANTED to work. What I realized is that they really just enjoyed the time with me.

I thought the great malfunction was losing all the work time on my computer. I've realized that the real malfunction is how lately, I haven't enjoyed those beautiful little girls nearly as much as I should have. They're pretty cool kids. Just don't turn your back on them, because they might tie you up.

So if you're lucky enough to know a couple of kiddos, take the time to enjoy them. Really enjoy them. I think back to the stepkids, and when they were B's age. Neat kids. I used to love watching them and listening to the games they played. Now that they're teenagers, I'm lucky to get a grunt out of them now and then. I miss their childhood. Don't miss out on the childhood of the children in your life.