Blessings of Friendship

I'm telling you, I'm not doing those stupid year end things.

However, I would be remiss if I didn't at least wax poetic about one of the blessings I've realized over the past year. I was My Space hopping, and giving the standard "Happy New Year" greeting, which I hate doing. I always think it's so impersonal to do a standard greeting, but I never know what to say. Hence my reason behind not sending out Christmas cards. I want to, but again, why send some dumb generic card? Then I realized that there's probably a lot of folks who don't know I care about them, because I'm too icked out by generic stuff, and unable to think of anything cool, so I end up not doing anything. That's even more lame, isn't it?

So, here's my generic, but very heartfelt greeting going out to those I love. This year, I've had some amazing new people come into my life, reconnected with some old friends, and had some of the same folk who've been by my side for years stay there. I'm pretty blessed. In fact, so much so that I don't have the ability to count them all in this lifetime.

I started thinking about this earlier today, because I got a phone call from someone who I thought of as a more casual acquaintance-I never thought she thought of me as a friend, if that makes sense. Don't get me wrong, I've always liked her and wanted to be her friend, I just never figured she thought that way towards me. Yeah, I know, I have issues. She said that she had been missing me lately and wanted to make sure everything was okay. She made a point of saying that she didn't want to lose touch with me. It was humbling, because I never thought much in terms of other people needing to hear from me or to know I was doing okay, even though I wonder how they are all the time.

Which, when you think about it, makes absolutely no sense. I think I've spent so much of my life on the wrong end of people's boots that I don't think I recognize the blessings I've been given from my friends. I don't recognize my friends. So, thank you. I'm a blind idiot, and I'm really blessed to know that you put up with me, even though I haven't been really good about recognizing it.

Happy New Year! And if you do end up getting some generic greeting from me, know that there is heartfelt feeling behind it. And if you don't, there's also some heartfelt feeling there, too. I'm just trying to find a way of expressing it.